Anthony Joshua, British-Nigerian boxer on Saturday in Jeddah, Saudi Arabia fought back tears after a narrow loss to Ukrainian Oleksandr Usyk.
Usyk, in a highly anticipated rematch, beat Joshua on split decision to retain the IBO, IBF, WBA and WBO heavyweight title.
A rattled Joshua at a post-fight press conference was in tears as he explained the bitter loss and his furious actions after the bout.
“I don’t feel anything, I’m upset deep down in my heart, When you lose, you’re ultimately not happy, it’s just upsetting.
“I wanted to win and I wanted to win for Great Britain because I knew how much they wanted me to fight Tyson Fury. I’m not so happy with the performance because I didn’t win.
“I appreciate everyone watching at home, I’m a fighter, I’m not a normal person.
“Even though I try and hold it together, to be a fighter is to have a real different mindset and lifestyle,” an emotional Joshua said.
Joshua then apologised for his furious reaction after the match when he threw away two championship belts from the ring and stormed out of the ring, before returning.
“I was mad at myself, not at anyone, just at myself, so I thought I’ve got to get out of here (ring) because I’m mad, like anyone when you’re angry, you might do stupid things.
“Then I realised, this is sport, let me do the right thing.
“It’s been so tough, you see AJ holding it together and I’m a hustler so I try and hold things together and I try and work hard, put things together, make sure my team’s good.
“But it comes at a cost, a big cost. It’ll never break me, but it takes real strength for it not to break you.
“There’s a little crack in that armour, because I took a loss and I think you just saw me upset,” he concluded.
Anthony Oluwafemi Olaseni Joshua, 32,is a British born boxer with Nigerian parents from Sagamu, Ogun state.